I have my life ahead of me but I don’t really feel like I can cope with adapting and making do for the rest of my life. I’m 21 old and have cerebral palsy. I struggle with depression a lot and although I admire some other disabled people for what they have achieved, I don’t really feel that I can do the same.
This picture and the one below illustrate aspects of cerebral palsy. They do not relate to the writer in this post
Nobody really understands my pain, I find it hard to watch everyone around me go to university, get a job, have relationships or go travelling and take everyday things for granted while I plod along. I’ve thought about ending it all but my family and friends would never understand and probably resent me for it but to me, but I sometimes feel that I have no other option because all I see in front of me is a life of misery and hardship. I hate it too much to live with it. I was just wondering if there was any advice anyone out there could give me? Have you ever felt a similar way? I’ve been on antidepressants on and off for about 6 years as well as going through counselling and visiting psychiatrists – I don’t mean to unload on anyone but I would like a perspective from someone who knows how it feels. It would help to know that I’m not alone.